it is definitely worth the wait. waited in line at the bank and yes i was able to deposit the cheque. waited for a carwash and yes i am satisfied with the result and waited in line at the dentist and yes i was now ache free from my tooth but feeling a little pain due to my chained braces and filed and filled tooth but it wont last that long, maybe a day or two and it'll be fine.
tomorrow's another day. nothing much to do except for the usual house stuff. have to stay at home to pretty stand up for my little white lie, haha, i'm out of town, somewhere south? anyway, that would be it for the day.....
Friday, July 2, 2010
Thursday, July 1, 2010
extra tired
for some reason, i dunno why i felt so tired and wasted after a rebonding session. i'm so dead tired that i cannot even eat, it would be ok if i just loose my appetite but this feeling of tiredness and whole body ache is really weird.
anyway, another day has pass and tomorrow's gonna be another struggle. struggle to keep my distance from my "so called friends" which up to now kept on calling me. i'm so not good at this so i really wish they would stop bugging me around. i just want to have a peaceful day, relaxed and happy. nothing much for this day, guess i'll retire early!
anyway, another day has pass and tomorrow's gonna be another struggle. struggle to keep my distance from my "so called friends" which up to now kept on calling me. i'm so not good at this so i really wish they would stop bugging me around. i just want to have a peaceful day, relaxed and happy. nothing much for this day, guess i'll retire early!
awakened me!
the past few days has been very busy. busy with both physical and emotional. went on a little soul searching at the same time!
i'm venturing into a new business which i am positive that will yield positive outcome because i really like it. i am now into perfumery. really can't wait to sniff on my finish products which i started to age inside my ref. i have 4 scents as of the moment. loving it so much. will wait 6 more days to bottle it.
i just learned about it through internet few weeks ago and from them on it didn't leave my mind so when i finally got my financial aid, from hubby ofcourse, i went straight to the store to attend the seminar and finally bought my stater kit. as soon as i got home, i started reading the manual to refresh my mind and then proceeded to blending my perfume, it was such a great satisfaction to be able to do the things that i want, a relief after having negative thoughts about my friends betrayal few days ago.
God is truly very very kind to me. after having a bad feeling about my " so called" friends which even lead me to cry a little, he gave me another reason to feel good and that is my going into my perfume addiction, LOL! he also gave me customers to rebond which means more cash flow, i'm so loving my life! a very good and loving husband and true bestfriends that lift my spirit during those times. funny that this so called friends of mine started calling and texting me yesterday, problem now is how can i manage to stay away from them without them noticing my dislike to be with them. i just felt bad that i dont wanna see them anymore. i hope my inner Ms Friendship character wont ruin my plan. i just want them to learn their lessons and eventually realize how bad they were, hmmm bitter! haha.
only few entries yet i really miss my blogging session already. wish i can do it everyday. i really have so much in my mind that i wanna share here but time restrict me form doing it. well then, till the next blog! ciao!
i'm venturing into a new business which i am positive that will yield positive outcome because i really like it. i am now into perfumery. really can't wait to sniff on my finish products which i started to age inside my ref. i have 4 scents as of the moment. loving it so much. will wait 6 more days to bottle it.
i just learned about it through internet few weeks ago and from them on it didn't leave my mind so when i finally got my financial aid, from hubby ofcourse, i went straight to the store to attend the seminar and finally bought my stater kit. as soon as i got home, i started reading the manual to refresh my mind and then proceeded to blending my perfume, it was such a great satisfaction to be able to do the things that i want, a relief after having negative thoughts about my friends betrayal few days ago.
God is truly very very kind to me. after having a bad feeling about my " so called" friends which even lead me to cry a little, he gave me another reason to feel good and that is my going into my perfume addiction, LOL! he also gave me customers to rebond which means more cash flow, i'm so loving my life! a very good and loving husband and true bestfriends that lift my spirit during those times. funny that this so called friends of mine started calling and texting me yesterday, problem now is how can i manage to stay away from them without them noticing my dislike to be with them. i just felt bad that i dont wanna see them anymore. i hope my inner Ms Friendship character wont ruin my plan. i just want them to learn their lessons and eventually realize how bad they were, hmmm bitter! haha.
only few entries yet i really miss my blogging session already. wish i can do it everyday. i really have so much in my mind that i wanna share here but time restrict me form doing it. well then, till the next blog! ciao!
Monday, June 28, 2010
it's finally over!
the long drama between me and hubby is finally over!
i wasn't expecting him to be that serious on that matter. but same old story goes, it's finish in a snap. no further if's and but's. that's what we are and how we deal with misunderstandings. seriously, there isn't much to talk about anymore. it's that same old stuff. a too jealous, possessive, old fashioned husband and a crazy wife wanting to have her own freedom,wanting to prove something, but it wont happen, not even in my dreams! he's always insisting that thats who he is and no one can change him. i am his and his alone, what a heck, i just love the guy so much that i just let it all happen. on the other hand, he's such a wonderful husband except for those three mentioned characteristics he have. he's a friend, my best bud. my soulmate, my betterhalf. it's just that sometimes, i really can't stand it anymore.
marriage is really not a jar of honey, it has a bitter after taste sometimes but you'll get used to it and you'll want it more and more, addicting is the right word! the sweet part is oh so good and the bitter is somewhat what makes you crave for more. because after that bitter taste you'll be looking forward to the sweet taste and i tell you, it's sweeter than ever.
my day is done! i was able to sleep tight after that early morning chat drama we had. thank God it's over! i just wish that we both learned something from it. a more forgiving and sensitive couple...i wish!
i wasn't expecting him to be that serious on that matter. but same old story goes, it's finish in a snap. no further if's and but's. that's what we are and how we deal with misunderstandings. seriously, there isn't much to talk about anymore. it's that same old stuff. a too jealous, possessive, old fashioned husband and a crazy wife wanting to have her own freedom,wanting to prove something, but it wont happen, not even in my dreams! he's always insisting that thats who he is and no one can change him. i am his and his alone, what a heck, i just love the guy so much that i just let it all happen. on the other hand, he's such a wonderful husband except for those three mentioned characteristics he have. he's a friend, my best bud. my soulmate, my betterhalf. it's just that sometimes, i really can't stand it anymore.
marriage is really not a jar of honey, it has a bitter after taste sometimes but you'll get used to it and you'll want it more and more, addicting is the right word! the sweet part is oh so good and the bitter is somewhat what makes you crave for more. because after that bitter taste you'll be looking forward to the sweet taste and i tell you, it's sweeter than ever.
my day is done! i was able to sleep tight after that early morning chat drama we had. thank God it's over! i just wish that we both learned something from it. a more forgiving and sensitive couple...i wish!
Sunday, June 27, 2010
"decide what you want and go for it"
i am now deciding on what i want and i really wanna go for it, i just hope it's not too late!
been wanting to do so much stuff and yet so many things adhere me from pushing forward with my goals. i almost felt my life is a big mess. it's a continuos cycle that i thought i will not be able to break, well, till this very moment i have doubts if i can really do it. how i wish i became brave enough to stand up for what i really want....it's also my fault that i let it happened to me. i should have done what i think would make me really happy and satisfied.
blogging for instance is one of those things i really want to do many years now, one of the "so many things on my to do list". so many thoughts and ideas and yet i don't know how to start it. it's been a struggle coz everytime i started typing those thoughts and ideas just flew away, for some reason i cannot concentrate, maybe my mind is preoccupied with so many things that i don't know which one to put in first. this time around i wanna try my luck and i hope i will emerge victorious with it, LOL!
after almost two years, i'm back here at blogger. hoping to share my everyday thoughts to all of you guys out there. whoever you are at wherever you are. hope that this will all make sense especially to those people who at this moment is on the same shoe as mine.
my 1st post started kinda off, i'm just so pissed with my better half that i decided to blurt it all out here. but on the other hand, that also inspires me to focus on issues on womanhood, my being a wife, a friend, a daughter and ofcourse an individual!
been wanting to do so much stuff and yet so many things adhere me from pushing forward with my goals. i almost felt my life is a big mess. it's a continuos cycle that i thought i will not be able to break, well, till this very moment i have doubts if i can really do it. how i wish i became brave enough to stand up for what i really want....it's also my fault that i let it happened to me. i should have done what i think would make me really happy and satisfied.
blogging for instance is one of those things i really want to do many years now, one of the "so many things on my to do list". so many thoughts and ideas and yet i don't know how to start it. it's been a struggle coz everytime i started typing those thoughts and ideas just flew away, for some reason i cannot concentrate, maybe my mind is preoccupied with so many things that i don't know which one to put in first. this time around i wanna try my luck and i hope i will emerge victorious with it, LOL!
after almost two years, i'm back here at blogger. hoping to share my everyday thoughts to all of you guys out there. whoever you are at wherever you are. hope that this will all make sense especially to those people who at this moment is on the same shoe as mine.
my 1st post started kinda off, i'm just so pissed with my better half that i decided to blurt it all out here. but on the other hand, that also inspires me to focus on issues on womanhood, my being a wife, a friend, a daughter and ofcourse an individual!
Saturday, June 26, 2010
don't want my wings clipped.......
it's just isn't fair! why can't i do things on my own? why does it have to be always with his permission and knowledge? i am married but that doesn't necessarily mean that i cannot have a life on my own, that i cannot do things the way i wanted to. it's just so frustrating to be in this kind of situation. i've been having so much of this way way back and yet i cannot do anything about it, i wish i really could. i just love him so much and now i can say that too much love really kills....huh!
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