it's finally over!

the long drama between me and hubby is finally over!

i wasn't expecting him to be that serious on that matter. but same old story goes, it's finish in a snap. no further if's and but's. that's what we are and how we deal with misunderstandings. seriously, there isn't much to talk about anymore. it's that same old stuff. a too jealous, possessive, old fashioned husband and a crazy wife wanting to have her own freedom,wanting to prove something, but it wont happen, not even in my dreams! he's always insisting that thats who he is and no one can change him. i am his and his alone, what a heck, i just love the guy so much that i just let it all happen. on the other hand, he's such a wonderful husband except for those three mentioned characteristics he have. he's a friend, my best bud. my soulmate, my betterhalf. it's just that sometimes, i really can't stand it anymore.

marriage is really not a jar of honey, it has a bitter after taste sometimes but you'll get used to it and you'll want it more and more, addicting is the right word! the sweet part is oh so good and the bitter is somewhat what makes you crave for more. because after that bitter taste you'll be looking forward to the sweet taste and i tell you, it's sweeter than ever.

my day is done! i was able to sleep tight after that early morning chat drama we had. thank God it's over! i just wish that we both learned something from it. a more forgiving and sensitive couple...i wish!

"decide what you want and go for it"

i am now deciding on what i want and i really wanna go for it, i just hope it's not too late!

been wanting to do so much stuff and yet so many things adhere me from pushing forward with my goals. i almost felt my life is a big mess. it's a continuos cycle that i thought i will not be able to break, well, till this very moment i have doubts if i can really do it. how i wish i became brave enough to stand up for what i really want....it's also my fault that i let it happened to me. i should have done what i think would make me really happy and satisfied.

blogging for instance is one of those things i really want to do many years now, one of the "so many things on my to do list". so many thoughts and ideas and yet i don't know how to start it. it's been a struggle coz everytime i started typing those thoughts and ideas just flew away, for some reason i cannot concentrate, maybe my mind is preoccupied with so many things that i don't know which one to put in first. this time around i wanna try my luck and i hope i will emerge victorious with it, LOL!

after almost two years, i'm back here at blogger. hoping to share my everyday thoughts to all of you guys out there. whoever you are at wherever you are. hope that this will all make sense especially to those people who at this moment is on the same shoe as mine.

my 1st post started kinda off, i'm just so pissed with my better half that i decided to blurt it all out here. but on the other hand, that also inspires me to focus on issues on womanhood, my being a wife, a friend, a daughter and ofcourse an individual!

don't want my wings clipped.......

it's just isn't fair! why can't i do things on my own? why does it have to be always with his permission and knowledge? i am married but that doesn't necessarily mean that i cannot have a life on my own, that i cannot do things the way i wanted to. it's just so frustrating to be in this kind of situation. i've been having so much of this way way back and yet i cannot do anything about it, i wish i really could. i just love him so much and now i can say that too much love really kills....huh!